Self Esteem

I wrote him off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But he came over
I lost my nerve
I took him back and made him dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
I know he's playing with me
That's okay cause I got no self esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If he keeps it up I just might tell him so

When he's saying that he wants only me
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease

Then I wonder how much more Ican spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah

Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night he knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when he's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem

When he's saying, oh, that he wants only me
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah