Self Esteem

I wrote him off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But he came over
I lost my nerve
I took him back and made him dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
I know he's playing with me
That's okay cause I got no self esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If he keeps it up I just might tell him so

When he's saying that he wants only me
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease

Then I wonder how much more Ican spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah

Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night he knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when he's ready to go
I may be dumb
But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem

When he's saying, oh, that he wants only me
Then I wonder why he sleeps with my friends
When she's saying, oh, that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah

I hate everything about you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet 

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you

Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything about me
Why do you love me

I hate you
You hate me
I hate you but
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Never too late

Run
Runaway from all the pain I feel now
Now that you're gone
I been so alone
So I runaway and then you followed me out
Out of the dark
Try to catch my breath
If only for a second
Just a small confession
Straight from my heart
Break
I break

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Run into the new and better you oh how
How did I let you go
So stubborn so cold
Wanna see the sun
Wake up early morning
You can keep me warm
I look at you and showed
The worse caught in my throat
I never even wrote them
We came so close
So close to love
Tried to catch my breath
If only for a second
Just a small confession
Straight from my heart
Break
I break

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Run through the storm
Sunrise too long
these tears will fall
my tears will run
Run

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Run

Run
Runaway from all the pain I feel now
Now that you're gone
I been so alone
So I runaway and then you followed me out
Out of the dark
Try to catch my breath
If only for a second
Just a small confession
Straight from my heart
Break
I break

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Run into the new and better you oh how
How did I let you go
So stubborn so cold
Wanna see the sun
Wake up early morning
You can keep me warm
I look at you and showed
The worse caught in my throat
I never even wrote them
We came so close
So close to love
Tried to catch my breath
If only for a second
Just a small confession
Straight from my heart
Break
I break

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Run through the storm
Sunrise too long
these tears will fall
my tears will run
Run

Couldn't talk
Couldn't sleep
Didn't know
What you need
Got me feeling so weak
Cause you came in too deep
Wanna stay
Wanna leave
I'm so caught in-between
Now I finally see
That you just weren't the one for me

Sour Times

I can love you better
Lose myself in love.

I used to do it for the love a long time ago
And all I ever wanted was love
I used to love without fear a long time ago
And all I ever wanted was love
Then somebody came around and tried to hurt me
Try to make me feel like I was unworthy
Took a pure love and tried to make it dirty
Truth was they never did deserve me no!

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

I had to lose myself so I could love you better
I had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
Love you better, lose myself in love
And that's just the way it is?

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

No one couldn’t tell me I was in love when I needed it
When, all I ever wanted was love.
Should a told me I was worth receiving it
But all I ever wanted was love
There's something awkward about the selflessness it
Takes to
Give love and the good that it makes you!
True love can never really forsake you
but it took a little while just for me to see!

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

I had to lose myself so I could love you better
I had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
Make it better
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself
So I could love you better
Lose myself in love
And that's just the way it is?

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

I had a paralyzing fear of facing failure
And I couldn't love you perfectly with that fear in my head
So I perilously had to face the danger
So I could come back and love you whole instead
All of your soul I said!
So I could make it better

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

I had to lose myself had to lose myself
So I could love you better
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
Make it better
Lose myself in love
And that's just the way it is

And so it goes that I never meant to hurt you
Couldn't stay but I never meant to desert you
Whole lot a things I just had to work through
Time to heal and restore my self-worth too
Confrontation of my fears and anxiety
Cried a whole lot of years I suffered quietly
And though it may have taken years I can finally
Tell you that you were always on my mind!

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

I had to lose myself so Icould love you better
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself so I could
Love you better baby better baby
Had to lose myself, had to lose myself
So I could love you better baby
Had to lose myself had to lose myself so I could love you better baby
Had to lose myself in love
Yeah, so I can love you better baby lose myself in love
Lose myself in love
And that's just the way it is!

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

Takes strength to absorb all the abuse I did
Great love to absorb all the misuse I did
Hey baby it's not an excuse I give.
And I'd do it all again because for you I live

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

Takes strength to absorb all the abuse I did
Great love to absorb all the misuse I did
Hey baby it's not an excuse I give.
And I'd do it all again because for you I live 

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

‘Cause nobody loves me

It’s true

Not like you do

Had to lose myself so I could love you better baby
Had to lose myself in love, so I could love you better baby
Had to lose myself in love again
So I could love you better baby
Had to lose myself in love again
So I could love you better baby love you better baby, I could love you better,I could love you better
I can love you better I could love you better I could love you better
It sure feels right
That's just the way it is

I wish I was her

It’s the way you look in your phone and smile but I didn’t send a message

Truth is obvious, I'm not good enough for you
Maybe it’s how you smell when you get home
That ain’t my fragrance, I’m convinced, baby
That you’re moving on
What does she do that I don’t do?
I’m not perfect but I do love you

what does she give that I don’t give?
Does she cook? Does she clean? Is her hand game mean?
I don’t know

I wish that I could be her
She’s the one that makes you wild
And I really wanna meet her

I wish that I could leave you
I could let you go, don’t wanna be alone
And I wish that I could meet her
She’s the one who has your heart
What does she do that made you
Forget about me and your family?


What does she give that I don’t give?
Does she cook? Does she clean? Is her hand game mean?
I don’t know, but

I wish that I could be her
She’s the one that makes you wild
And I really wanna meet her

I wish that I could leave you
I could let you go, don’t wanna be alone
I wish that I could meet her
She’s the one who has your heart

She’s with you ‘cause she likes how it feels
I care ‘cause it feels real
She different cut, my lost, is it really all that good?
Is she really all that fine? Got you outside of your mind
Damn, I wish I could be her
Damn, I wish I could be her
Oh, I wish I could leave you
But I really need you

I wish that I could be her
She’s the one that makes you wild
And I really wanna meet her

I wish that I could leave you
I could let you go, don’t wanna be alone
I wish that I could meet her
because she’s the one who has your heart

The animal that I become

I can't escape this hell

So many times I’ve tried
But I’m still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


I can't escape myself
So many times I’ve lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

I can't escape this hell

So many times I’ve tried
But I’m still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


I can't escape myself
So many times I’ve lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell

I can't escape this hell

So many times I’ve tried
But I’m still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


I can't escape myself
So many times I’ve lied
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me


Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell